Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Oh man the holiday's are upon me and I realized

I'm FAT. Not just Phat or cute oompa loompa fat, but way too big for my britches fat.

It's depressing. I have always been a big girl, but lately.......yeah.

I need to do something. Is it like AA where you admit you are powerless over your fat and bad eating habits and seek your Higher power (In my case God) to help you get rid of the bulge? I am the size of two people. TWO.

Bitterly depressing. I know a lot of the factors in my seeming inability to get rid of the bubbling fat deposits on my body. First there is dissatisfaction with the "state of my life". I am not where I hoped I would be. Not even close. Did I have a lot of plans? Nope, but how do I achieve at least one of them?

Secondly there is the fact that, though I enjoy my job on most days, it is completely sedentary and you are encouraged to NOT leave your cubicle because there is too much to do and only a 30 min lunch to do it in. For me, that's like an extended coffee break, not a work break. Maybe I can get them to change my schedule back to 8 to 5:00, especially since I come in at 7:30 every day anyway after I drop MB off at school.

Thirdly, my house is too small for all the people living here, and all the people, myself included, like to eat crap. That and everybody else is so picky I'm burned out on cooking. I eat because it's there and tastes better than fish and baked chicken.

I need pointers, tips, advice, a chastity belt for my mouth.

Help me dear blogger friend before I blow up like Harry Potter's aunt in The Prisoner of Azcarban. (Don't flame me, I know I probably spelled it wrong. I like Harry Potter).

help

2 comments:

~ cyndyann ~ said...

Ewes not fat, ewes fluffy!

My best friend had a little sheep thingy hanging on her mantle that said that. When I read your first line, that's what popped into my head...

The only thing that works for me is Weight Watchers. LA Wt Loss works too, but damn, it's expensive!

Try cutting out something that you have every day that you know you shouldn't. That's a start.

Don't think about it as losing a gazillion pounds - think of it in 10 or 20 pound increments. It seems more obtainable that way...

Type this up and put it on your fridge, bathroom mirror or wherever you'll see it several times a day...

I WILL EAT TO LIVE - NOT LIVE TO EAT

Food is so darned good these days! Unfortunately the good yummy stuff has a bazillion calories...

My girlfriend drinks a glass of water before she puts anything in her mouth. She says this fills her enough so if she does eat something she shouldn't, she tends to eat less of it because she's full quicker...

So there's my 10 cents ... Now if I could just get MYSELF to do these things I might just be having better luck against the ol' bulge myself...

I miss you! Lots of love to you and yours...

HUGS

Angela said...

okay first off I don't know what you had in mind but you have accomplished much. Of course the plan of action changes but you are so strong and wonderful you have dealt with everything thrown at you and prevailed.

As far as weight loss, obviously getting all the crap out of the house is a wonderful start. If it isn't there you don't eat it. Someone else wants you they can buy it and you leave it alone, lol.

I felt like crap a long time when I was more overweight. Mostly due to same things, I hated how my life was turning, my hubby was a PITA, I felt alone and food felt good to me. Then I realized screw that I need to learn to find and love myself again for the boys if nothing else. Walking worked a bit for me. Ofcourse now it is freezing and I work way to much.

So how about ((((((((hugs))))))))) for a better tomorrow