Tuesday, June 27, 2006

"My earthly kingdom for a bathroom"


here's the sitch, as Kim Possible says, we have 3 adults and 1 5-year-old in our teenie, tiny house now and only one ....um...facility. Normally this is not an issue as our schedules differ greatly. I get up before my husband. My sister gets home as we are getting up....not much of a backlog there. But add in the other kids every other weekend and we have some real problems developing.

I know there are exercises to increase the tautness of one's buttocks, but tell me, is there an exercise to increase the size of one's bladder????

My kingdom (on earth, nobody gets the good stuff in Heaven baby) my kingdom for another bathroom .....

and I really could use a bigger kitchen and laundry room....

and is a mud room too much to ask for...wrap around portch and maybe a little storage....

oh and 4 bedrooms.

I ask too much *wink*

Monday, June 12, 2006

Utterly invisible.

Have you ever felt utterly invisible? I have this feeling occasionally, but for some reason lately more than ever. I wish I could say that my invisibilty meant God's visible through me....but I'm not sure that is it either. I just feel invisible.

alone in a house full of people.
alone in an office full of activity and people on the phones.
alone in the church pew.
alone in the grocery store, on the freeway, alone.

I'm wishing and praying for some intrapersonal relationships, but my alone-ness is growing.

I hope I grow out of it soon.

My sister lives with us now and I love it. I spend a lot of time talking to her about God and depression and hope. But I still feel alone.

My son clings to me...but I still feel alone.

I pray, and KNOW I am not alone, but still feel alone.

I sit with my husband and feel alone.

I'm gagging myself now with my self pity. See you 'round.

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

Summer reading list

We are on vacation, sort of, this week. Visiting my in-laws, and hoping to see my mom before she moves to Texas.

While visiting my in-laws, I have to confess a guilty secret. I LOVE books. Not just "wow, I really like to read" but I LOVE BOOKS and so does my MIL (Mother-in-law for those now familiar with on-line shortcuts). I was sitting in her office and gazing longingly at all of the wonderful books on her shelves when I spotted a book about the friendship of C.S. Lewis and JRR Tolkein. OHHH man. I wanted to stop talking to everybody and read that book. I behaved myself and asked to borrow it....it and about 10 0ther books at this point. My MIL is awesome and we have this whole shared existance a few years apart (you thought I'd give you her age didn't you!)....we are frighteningly similar in many many ways (It is true boys, you marry your mom....ask my husband). So she, of course, loaned me the book...and the others...and then added a few she knew I would like to read. I'm giddy with anticipation. Now, I don't have time to read them now...you know...running all over creation to try to catch up with old friends and family in the area. But I tell you what. I have not watched TV in about a week now and, though I will admit I miss it, I will be missing more when we get home because I want to read these books. I will tell you about them as I go if you are intersted. I have not had a great read in a long time. There are only so many times you can read Jane Ayre or The Red Dwarf before you gotta get some new literature in you.

So thank you Momma.....I'm sorry I'm taking about 1/8 of your personal reading libarary with me back to Tennessee *grin* You can visit it in November when you come for your conference.